My day in songs
I had a hard mom morning. It came after a long night of rough sleep with a baby. It was one of those mornings where you cannot see straight and you kind of just stare at the wall. I grumbled to myself as I made breakfast. And in the background, I hear by 2 year old daughter start to sing "Spirit of the Living God."
Yes.
"Spirit of the living God,
Spirit of the living God,
We only want to hear your voice
We're hanging on every word"
One of the ways I can get myself into trouble is that I will freak out about freaking out. I get anxious that I'm anxious or sad that I got sad. In other words, I will let my feelings drive instead of validating them and putting them in their proper place. So I was doing a bit of that this morning . . .
My baby boy is currently in a stage where he only wants to sleep in his carseat or while being held (actually he his currently strapped to my chest as I write this). So we loaded into the car to meet some friends for coffee. On the way, I called a long-time friend and truth speaker and basically said "I feel like a failure of a mom. I just don't know if I'm cut out for this. I'm tired. I'm frayed." And she just reminded me of God's truth like she always does. The most helpful truth was that when we get to the end of our rope and we feel so spent, we will still find our Savior there and that truly is the best news ever.
This is the most precious promise to me: that I know I will be okay. Like really, I will.
The Lord is my shepherd, there is nothing I lack (Psalm 23:1).
He has given me all I need for life and Godliness (2 Peter 1:3).
You can call me a pessimist. You can call me a doubter, but I have found in my journey of faith that God's greatest lessons have not been about trusting Him to make something happen but finding an even greater joy in Christ alone when the things do NOT happen (at least according to my timeline and specifications). That is why I am so captivated by the story of the fiery furnace in Daniel 3 (for which this blog is named).
"There is another in the fire
standing next to me
There is another in the waters
holding back the sea
and should I ever need reminding
what power set me free
there is a grave that holds no body
now that power lives in me"
We arrived at our coffee date and after I had a nice little cry, we met up with a dear. Again, I was encouraged by God's truth and faithfulness through the testimony of that friend in my life. We shared about our current struggles as my daughter piped up and said "Jesus died on the cross for our sins." I tell ya, that little girl is something else. Yes, praise God for the gospel. If God did not spare His own son, will He not also graciously give us all things? (Romans 8).
Yes. That is my hope to which I must always return. If my confidence is in something constant and unshakeable, then I really have nothing to fear. I never have to worry that my strength will run out or my well will run dry. I never have to ask the question "will I be enough for my family today?" If I truly believe the promises of God, I know I will be okay. Really. Really, I will.
"Father of kindness
you have poured out grace
you have brought me out of darkness
you have filled me with peace
giver of mercy
You're my help in time of need
Lord I can't help but sing
faithful, you are
faithful, forever you will be
faithful, you are
all your promises are YES AND AMEN"
Yes.
"Spirit of the living God,
Spirit of the living God,
We only want to hear your voice
We're hanging on every word"
One of the ways I can get myself into trouble is that I will freak out about freaking out. I get anxious that I'm anxious or sad that I got sad. In other words, I will let my feelings drive instead of validating them and putting them in their proper place. So I was doing a bit of that this morning . . .
My baby boy is currently in a stage where he only wants to sleep in his carseat or while being held (actually he his currently strapped to my chest as I write this). So we loaded into the car to meet some friends for coffee. On the way, I called a long-time friend and truth speaker and basically said "I feel like a failure of a mom. I just don't know if I'm cut out for this. I'm tired. I'm frayed." And she just reminded me of God's truth like she always does. The most helpful truth was that when we get to the end of our rope and we feel so spent, we will still find our Savior there and that truly is the best news ever.
This is the most precious promise to me: that I know I will be okay. Like really, I will.
The Lord is my shepherd, there is nothing I lack (Psalm 23:1).
He has given me all I need for life and Godliness (2 Peter 1:3).
You can call me a pessimist. You can call me a doubter, but I have found in my journey of faith that God's greatest lessons have not been about trusting Him to make something happen but finding an even greater joy in Christ alone when the things do NOT happen (at least according to my timeline and specifications). That is why I am so captivated by the story of the fiery furnace in Daniel 3 (for which this blog is named).
"There is another in the fire
standing next to me
There is another in the waters
holding back the sea
and should I ever need reminding
what power set me free
there is a grave that holds no body
now that power lives in me"
We arrived at our coffee date and after I had a nice little cry, we met up with a dear. Again, I was encouraged by God's truth and faithfulness through the testimony of that friend in my life. We shared about our current struggles as my daughter piped up and said "Jesus died on the cross for our sins." I tell ya, that little girl is something else. Yes, praise God for the gospel. If God did not spare His own son, will He not also graciously give us all things? (Romans 8).
Yes. That is my hope to which I must always return. If my confidence is in something constant and unshakeable, then I really have nothing to fear. I never have to worry that my strength will run out or my well will run dry. I never have to ask the question "will I be enough for my family today?" If I truly believe the promises of God, I know I will be okay. Really. Really, I will.
"Father of kindness
you have poured out grace
you have brought me out of darkness
you have filled me with peace
giver of mercy
You're my help in time of need
Lord I can't help but sing
faithful, you are
faithful, forever you will be
faithful, you are
all your promises are YES AND AMEN"
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